i had the worse nightmare last night.
don't ask me what.
i do not wish to reminisce it.
i can only say that i woke up from my sleep in tears.

i only know, that i'm afraid of losing *her.

dear, never ever leave me.
im afraid.
i'm selfish. yes i am.
i just want you all for myself.

d'ya wish that for yourself too?

i've never felt so much for a person at all.
to a point that these nightmares can bolt me up from my sleep.
(and in the end, straining my neck as a result).
i've never loved someone so much before.
to a point where im so afraid of losing *her.
*she means so much to me, that i do not know how to live my life without *her.
i... need *her so badly.
that i crave for *her everyday.

da, i love you so much.
d'ya know that?

never, ever leave me, ok?

i got too bored staying at home.
that i decided to go out with my mum today.
to vivo. better than coping myself at home.
ah. boredom will so really kill me.

anyways.
i am so guna trade my old samsung phone for a new one.
darn. i still have to pay $200 for it because my phone value dropped till $90 because of the condition of my phone. (peeling of the casing for u700. known problem. pfft. manufacturer didnt do it well, consumer will bear the consequences. how selfish. tsk).

anyways.
im getting the u900. samsung soul.
better quality, better functions.
more worth the money.
o wells.

phone didnt come in today, so i had to reserve one.
collect tmr.

hopefully this new phone dun disappoint me like how my previous one did.
or else, i will totally give up on samsung phones already.
gahs.

im online with my love now.
hp low batt.

cant get a min away from my majesty.
need to talk to her badly.
ah!!!!

ahem. ok.
anyways.

shall talk a lil about my after-surgery.
right cheek still slightly swollen.
ice-packed, but still a lil sore.
i look so square-faced now.
pffft.

okays.
i better put my full 100% attention on da now.

laters!

puffer fish

2nd day after my surgery.
cheeks swelling up, like a puffer fish.
-puff up cheeks-
owww.

weather's so cold today.
so's at dada's side.
i can hear the wind blowing vigorously over the phone.
ah. my poor love.

anyhooos.
am on the skype phone with dada now.
carrying joyce jr on her shoulder.
shooooo cute.
-grins-

anyhooos.
i shall update till here for now.
laters.

owwww....

okays.
i just had my two impacted wisdom teeth extracted.
holy cows.
i sure feel very uncomfortable after the surgery.
and now, i cant even talk, except to mumble and MMMmmmm all the way.
i feel like a dumb dumb now.
acks.

anyhoows.
my darn msn is not working.
hell knows why.

im spitting blood now.
due to the wound.


i seriously feel like a vampiress now.
who just prayed on a victim's blood.

acks.

Official "Opening"

Ok.
i can officially blog in here.
finally found a way to pretty up my page using beautiful templates, other than the ones offered here in blogger.

here's the web address if anyone's interested.
i will update the web addresses of the designs i sourced from soon. =)
http://www.pyzam.com/bloggertemplates

anyhooos.

im due for my surgery tomorrow.
surprisingly, im not the least afraid.
i haver *her. so, i have the courage.

i promised i will be strong for her.
so i will.
right-O's love?

*she is a miracle. she comforts me. she soothes me.
yes she does. im loved. very loved.

anyhooows.

my love's coming home to me soon.
i cant wait to be in her arms again.
ah.... 17, please arrive soon.

im just testing. hang on.